One Hundred Sleepless Nights (Lashton au)
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(Trigger warning. This book includes self-harm, eating disorders, depression, and talk of suicide. If any of these trigger you please do not read this for your safety. Thank you)
Hi my name is Ashton, I'm 17 years old and I'm upset.
I don't know why I'm upset. I mean there are many reasons why I could be upset such as, I'm an outcast, my moms dead, my dad abuses me, and I'm bullied at school. Sure those reasons are defiantly part of the reason why I'm so upset, but I'm upset all the time, and I don't even know why. I get so sad to the point where I don't even want to live anymore.
It sucks. Life sucks.
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