Can you see me?

Everything was so freezing as if I was stuck in time, my veins pulsing with a shock I never wanted to remember. Skin the color of ice, and I swear the cold was slowly consuming me. Windy air that pushed me back into the bad state I was in, Cold rain that soaked my clothes teeth chattering as I wrapped my arms around myself the house I made never seemed like a home and the walls were crumbling around me, my lungs doing the same. I was searching for some kind of warmth I'd never be able to find again. Standing still in the black abyss surrounding me, I once thought of it as a home but God this place will never be a home to me it brought me back and I kept falling and falling until I was afraid to get up again. My body was never my home, I'm living in a blankslate of a reality I tried creating on my own, but I failed. I walk slowly and quietly not hearing a sound other than the slow breathing that shook my chest and knocked me back into reality. I breath in the cold air and walk to a unknown world, were nothing is left no happiness no emotion, nothing. It seemed calm, I always liked being alone but now me myself and I is the one thing I fear most. The sky, black with stars everywhere giving me the little light I needed, no humans in reach no one was ever there for me.. I'm No where, just lost. Lost in a blissful Poison that was slowly drowning me. The nuse wrapping around me like a warm hug, the pills keeping me warm the numbers continuing to build, the blades keeping me company on my spoon like knees chattering in the cold. If you.. are actually wondering, I'm blind. The messed up kid, the broken one. But hell isn't that obvious.

WARNING: TRIGGER WARNING, ABUSE, CUTTING