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Paint me Black (On Hold)

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Reads 9,866
Votes 548
Parts 21
Time 2h 22m

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bdsm gay graphic mature mxm ptsd romance violence

Ashley. A beautiful, androgynous young man stuck in a world which only values him for what they can take.
Used, abused and coveted by all who meet him, his scars run deep and the emptiness threatens to engulf him...

Tristan. A strong, embittered man sought after for his genius but rejected for his scars.
Tortured, tossed away and then risen from the ashes of his past, his darkness can either save Ashley...
or plunge him into a deep pit from which he may never return.

WARNING: Contains subject matter which may be disturbing to some readers. 
Including but not limited to: swearing, sex, gay relations, bdsm, violence, rape
PTSD/mental illness.
Reader discretion is strongly advised.All Rights Reserved

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