Chapter 1: Le début (Sweet Express)

Don't ever compare me to anyone.

I'm not like everybody else.

I feel pain way more than an average person should.

And I take myself to this deep and scary place

That doesn't even exist.

It's a made up place that I take myself in my dreams

I scare myself on purpose

And I can't stop.

The only thing I feel is the feeling of being scared.

And I do it to myself.

I don't feel anything else.

My heart is numb.

Don't read if you're looking for a happy ending. My ending doesn't end like that. I'm a dark and mysterious type of person. I don't express myself too much. Until now. This is what this book is about. My real feelings or real life events. I'm trying to change! I hate that I can't feel and I hate that I do terrible things to myself. I'm trying the best I can to change but its not as easy when I like the trill of scarring myself and being heartless.

(Ps listen to music while reading. Such as Lana Del Ray, and classical/peaceful piano on Spotify.)