I knew that kissing in front of the loveless was an act of cruelty and knew very well how I used to be a loveless with a darkening past. A past that turned into a menacing knife that dug deeper into my flesh with every second an image draws it. How much more can you give a human if you already give them the valuable crystal, you call a heart, that's been shattered before that it resulted in being so fragmentary, the slightest touch of a fingertip fractures it .
That night it was carelessly dropped on the floor, all pieces disintegrated. I tried picking each piece up but only bled when I touched the intense sharp edges. Day by day it was stepped on unmercifully, leaving the blood to dry and eventually evaporate.
Emptiness filling your limited heart will teach you something like it did to me. Don't be fooled when they say they'll be there because they leave
He wouldn't trust that bridge we built together filled with love & tenderness. A love so deep the ocean would be jealous.
We always question why bad happen to the good ,such pain that never gained happiness. I asked God every night what sin I recalled making to merit such hell on earth.
Why I never allowed myself to love again and believe someone would love me. The once beautiful universe of blooming flowers, streaming crystal rivers spun and spun until it became burnt ashes, dry lands and devils in disguise.
Happiness didn't seem to last long with me, yet I was so blinded by the merriment of this sacred, precious gift I received from God , I forgot about the world and the luckless circle of life with me. I thought this gift would strengthen an endearment between him & I, instead I kept it hidden.
I forgot that my exuberance would always be stolen and never given back, leaving an unhealed scar to remember it.
Secrets reveal, hearts will shatter. The truth will be out & lives would change forever, white lies divulge & the blanket of lies would uncover.
After all, there are no secrets that time doesn't reveal.
"don't look at me with those eyes Ms Singh otherwise I will loose myself to you ". He said and landed forward our lips so close but still that strength of kissing each other wasn't.
"You know advik ,you already loosed yourself when you said that if anything like love existed then you would have fallen for me ,like they way no one did ".
I told him as my hand moved to his cheeks.
"Exactly,But that felling of love doesn't exist in reality".
He told me
"Fuck ,then what about those feelings which you are having for me "?
"I don't know what I feel for you Radhika".
He said as he crassed my taato which was on my neck .
"You know what it's good that you are leaving advik ,I thought that you were just trying to run away from things but no there's nothing like that ! I was the one who thought that you are changing because of me ,even I thought that I have found my one but know I was so wrong, so wrong because I fall for wrong human ! You really don't deserve this advik ".
I told him and tried to go away but he holded me back ,
"If there's something in your heart for me then I will suggest you to forget me ,and look forward for someone who can love you madly ,who can take care of you ,you should look for someone of whom you will be not scared of radhika"
"I know that you are not perfect and so I but you what advik what makes both of us best is us being not perfect and then also I can guarantee you that we are so perfect together with our imperfections."
She said and passed me her smile which I saw very first time ,teary eyes with peaceful smile.
I didn't said anything and stepped more closer to her ,she closed her eyes making her tears travel down her cheeks but before that can happen I cleaned them and kissed her on forehead.
"Trust me , I don't know about anything but only thing I am aware is you are going to be there in my mind till my last breath and I hope you forget me the moment I leave India ".