I Broke My Own Heart Loving You

I'm done. I can't take seeing the love of my life go live without me, knowing I'll never have my sunshine back kills me more than anything. Seeing him go live his life with a girl by his side. I can't take seeing him happy without me, it hurts knowing that he is fine without me while I've stayed up for what seems like hours night a day's crying my eyes out till there was no water left. I decided that If he didn't need me, then there is no point in living, breathing. He was the one good choice I made, and he was gone in a blink of an eye, no reason. Just gone with a girl, loving while.. I am slowly dieing. So I does it. I finally let go, I didn't want to hold on anymore my hands are bruised already, rug burn tearing at my skin for holding onto something that never looked back at me. I didn't want to see Him get married, or have kids, or get old with someone he loved. So I got back to my roots, the simple shock going threw my veins as I pushed at the needle, the way my skin would tingle as my mouth goes dry blade slicing my skin, pills ever so easy to swallow, and weight slowly drifting away. I wouldn't waste away my life knowing there's no reason, so why not end it?

TRIGGER WARNING

Author: Sorry if the book sucks, it's my second one I'm sharing, I'm also sorry if I don't update often. But that's just a me thing to do. -Ally