I hate those gut wrenching feelings you get when you feel like something is churning in your stomach even though you haven't eaten or as if you feel acid being thrown on you and it's burning right through your skin. I get that feeling whenever my eyes land on him. He makes my whole body hurt and numb. My heart constricts, the palms of my hands and the soles of my feet clam up, and my breathing stops. I never understood how he had this effect on me. I look at him so much more different than how he looks at me. He looks at me with resentment, disgust, and pure hatred. To me, he's perfect. He's everything I ever wanted. In my dreams, we were the ideal couple everyone wanted to be. In reality, he hurts me everyday. Not physically, but emotionally. Xavier is my mate, as I am his.