The Little Girl Inside

As far back as I can remember all I ever wanted was to feel loved, wanted and safe. I came from parents who fought and drank all the time and promised myself I would leave all that behind one day. Not realizing the pain that stays with you when you go.
As soon as I turned 18 it was the open door I have been waiting for. Now I was in this Big world on my own trying to figure out where I belong or even if I did? Feeling so lost without any direction. Trying to stay positive was very hard to do when your pushed away from the ones you always thought you would be close to. Why didn't anyone care?
By the time I turned 21, I was meeting all the wrong guys in a bar looking for someone to love and make me feel important. I started seeing a guy who said he loved me and promised me the world till I found out I was pregnant. He then was no where to be found. I was scared again and far from wanting to be a mom or even knew how to be one.