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Sadness is an inescapable emotion, so you turn to something that makes you in control.
Sleep makes you be non existent for a bit, sex makes you feel loved, drugs make you forget, and in all of these you find temporary happiness.
When Dan Howell sees his best friend kill herself for unknown reasons, he himself falls into a depression, and blames himself for the event that took place before his eyes.
He turns to drugs, and it starts with just one bottle and just one smoke.....
Then it turns into everything he cares about, and his life turns upside down.
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