Beware of the monster under my bed.

Castiel James Novak has a monster under his bed,
Its big and scary with crooked teeth and razor sharp nails and no matter how many times Cas pleads with him to leave he always sticks around for more.
PTSD can be a pain in the ass.
School was always hard for cas. So when he becomes close friends with Dean Winchester, Cas soon realizes that eventually Deans gonna realize the reason why he jumps every time Dean touches him unexpectedly. Why he cowards behind his hands when Deans hand reaches to close to his face. Why he starts to cry when Dean tickles him any where lower than his chest. Why for the hundredth time he told Dean "no" when Dean asks him out.
He hates his life and cant understand why Dean is so willing to be apart of it.

WARNINGS:
ABUSIVE CONTENT
SEXUAL AND PHYSICAL ABUSE
SELF HARM
CONSENTED TOUCHING

PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE EASILY TRIGGERED BY ANY OF THESE <3