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"Are you insane like me?"

Joaquin is a single father raising his teenage daughter. 
Her mother left her when she was 4 years old and hasn't talked to her since. 10 years later, she shows up. But this time, she's a junkie and has creepy boyfriends. 
She ends up in the wrong crowd and is drawn to drugs. She ends up turning into a wreck. Is this just repeating River Phoenix's death? She feels she can't tell anyone, because her dad hates drugs and would kill her if he found out because River, his brother, died the same way. 
Can everything ever be the same?

"You can't wake up, this is not a dream."

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Title: Gasoline - Halsey

"My heart is gold and my hands are cold."All Rights Reserved

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Abigail

(In editing) She's depressed. She's anorexic. She's suicidal. She's insecure. Abigail has grown up with her three brothers and James, never meeting her parents, who abandoned her at birth. Her brothers were left to take care of her and keep a roof over their heads. Everyday they struggle to take care of Abigail, while working to keep them in their home. Life for them is hard. Life for Abigail is even harder. She has a dark mind and not by choice. Somewhere along the way she's developed these feelings of loneliness and hopelessness. Everyday is a struggle for her and just getting out of bed is a success. She meets Zach, a bad boy with a bad reputation. He starts off as a tutor, just to help her out, out of pity. But eventually feelings get involved and Abigail finds herself liking a boy for the first time in her life. Things get serious and she somehow learns about his drug dealing business. Everything gets hectic and Abigail doesn't know what to do with her life anymore. Or if she even wants to live.