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Seventeen Years of Despondency

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His name was Quentin Black, and we were dangerously in love. He was the source of my happiness, and the source of my pain. But I couldn't live without him.

I was a damaged soul, filled with all sorts of sorrow and despair, but he swore to fix me. And fix me he did, for a while, until that time was cut short on numerous occasions by an unfortunate series of 
events. Several people tried to interfere with his plans of helping me; Emma, Austin, and even my own mother. But in the end, it was down to me and him who were held responsible for how the story went.
 
So here's how the story about my last year on earth goes. Not a love story, not a horror story, but my story; my death story.All Rights Reserved

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The Lost Chance

A boy committed suicide, but before his soul moves on, he is given a chance to see what he left behind. A girl longing for true love waits for him, seeing her causes him to want to stay. Living by her side as a ghost for a few months helped her feel his love and longing until one fateful day she meets him. (For anyone who feels like there is no reason to hold on anymore, just know that there is always a reason to continue holding on).