Knives and Pens
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Last published Thu, Mar 28, 2013
"I really thought life was horrible. It wasn't going to get any better. The only things that I had to take the pain away was music, my knife, and my pen. My music so I can drown all sorrows in it, my knife for... You know. But my pen for my notebook, to take my pain away on that paper..." Lilian lived a tough life, constantly dealing with her father who abused her mother and her. He was an alcoholic. She couldn't stand it. Her brother Jaimie had always been there for her and her mother. Always trying to help. But what happens when Lilian finds a new kind of support? No not drugs, but a certain member from a band she never thought she would even know one song to. He helps her in more ways than one.
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