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Hospitalization
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Ongoing, First published Aug 13, 2015
I don't know who I'm sharing this with yet but I just decided that I'm sharing this with someone. I don't even know what this is yet. This could be the start of my recovery. Or the end of my story. Or just another random journal shared. Except I know this is important. And your reading this because you are important. And you just weren't just important to the world be you were also important to me. Or maybe you still are important to me. Or maybe you don't even remember me. Or you're trying to forget me and I'm sorry. Or maybe you don't even know me. If you are just trying to forget me and I'm just re-opening old wounds, I'm sorry. If you have forgotten me you can throw this away and forget this too. If you still are important to me don't tell me you read this or bring it up to me. If you don't even know me I hope you get something out of this or that it just entertains you for a just moment. But no matter who you are I care about you and you should never feel hurt or alone. And if you do I promise you'll get through this.

This is from my time at dominion hospital. I went into inpatient because I was suicidal and self harming. I was being treated for depression, anxiety,suicidal thoughts, a history of drinking, and self harm. So, welcome to my twisted mind....
(!!!WARNING: May be triggering!!!)
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