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The Last Days of May

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Reads 210
Votes 29
Parts 15
Time 2h 37m

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"Ok May, I know this is difficult for you but we need to know. Are you suicidal?" 

Am I suicidal? The question I have been asking myself for months but never knowing the answer. 

"No. I'm not suicidal, I promise, but I'm not scared to die. What I mean is I'm not looking both ways before I cross the road." 

It's true, I'm not suicidal. I'm not picking out a rope or hoarding my pills, unless you count the time I saved them up and sold them for concert tickets. I'm just not eating and being a bit reckless. I guess I'm slowly killing myself, how poetic.  
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Minor warning. 

This story will have swearing. Mental health plays a key role in the plot so chances are there will be some self harming. I don't want anyone to be triggered by this as that would break my heart. 

-Tilboh xAll Rights Reserved

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