When I can't do anything else but think
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It's like, I want to explain how I feel. I really do, but there are no words in a dictionary for it. It's hidden, deep within the dictionary, so I can never find them and everyone who asks, how I really feel. So I cover it up with normal over used words people would rather hear.
"I'm fine, I swear"
If those words weren't stopping me from saying everything and the words in the dictionary came out of their hiding spots and helped me, I wouldn't be so sad and quiet inside.
Everyone would know I wasn't alright. Everyone would try to save me..
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