I can't win. My life is over. I know I shouldn't even try, but I am trying. Why? Because of my will. Because someone give up their life, risking their family's life for mine. Because people are waiting for me to come home. And because my sister will have nothing to live for if I die. And my mother might go into a depressive state that she will never come out of. Who will people go to when there sick? I have to win. I have to, but how?