My first love
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Last published Fri, Jan 8, 2016
This is how I start my journey of "from I love you to I hate you" does anybody out there knows how it feels like to be played? Betrayed by the one person you could give up the world for? ? It really hurts and only those who experienced can understand what I went through...I'm writing this book about him..the guy who left me numb.
Hope you enjoy!!!!
Actually is my first time to write
I will only write how I felt.
Any error you free to correct me.
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