I should hate it. It's a curse, after all. I've caused a lot of pain, hurt a lot of people because of it. My youth went by so fast it's like I'm still there, at the very first step towards this insanity. I can only remember fragments of it. Eight years of nothing, only the build up to the moment when I cut the cord. Only foundations weakening each day I spent trying to control my thoughts and extract every sliver of hope out of any source I could find.
This curse, it's always near me. This bubble could burst at any second, and everything would end: my life or another's, me or my family's future. It's a black hole, an endless pit that sucks in every penny, every loving gesture that you throw at it. But I don't hate it. I'm thankful, even happy that a burden this large rests on my shoulders.
Everything's clearer now, my mind unplugged from the system. I think and act by my own will and I can safely say I'm safe when all of this ends...for now. I still have to climb myself out of this rabbit hole, but everything else is primed for the taking. I have decades upon decades ahead of me.
The Tears I Learned to Love is a collection of poems that explores the complex journey of love, loss, and healing.
From the fiery passion of first moments to the silence left by absence, this book is about the deep ache of letting go and the quiet strength found in rebuilding.
Each poem reflects a moment of heartache, but also of resilience.
It's not just a story of heartbreak, it's about learning to embrace the tears that shape us.