Playlist - Troyler AU
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*This whole story will be in Troye's POV*
To Tilly: I can't believe how far we've come. I love you. Hopefully this playlist explains everything. Because all that i have to say couldn't possibly fit into a few words.
Love,
your Troyeboy
I've always loved it. The feeling of floating away. As if time just... stops. In a mesmerised trance in which nothing matters. My mind is just plainly blank, without a care in the world. I forget about everything that causes me stress, everything that reminds me that someday, somewhere, somehow, all this will come to an end. Pain. Thats all I feel. Pain. The feeling of being numb even for a milisecond in my life, is amazing. So when I can blank out, I do. Most people wonder why I do this to myself. When honestly they have many other important things to worry about. I enjoy this. It gives me a feeling of freedom. As if the world just disappeared, and it's just me.
It was an addiction. And it was getting worse by the second. That was, until I met Tyler Oakley.
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