Broken and lost - Phan
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Last published Wed, Aug 19, 2015
Summary: Phil made a mistake of hurting Dan and it ended yo having a massive a big impact on his life. He's broken and lost and he really hates himself for what he has done. Apart from the flashback, this is written as though Phil is talking to Dan.
TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of abuse, self harm, depression and suicide. Please don't read if you are triggered by these things.
Author's notes: Please bare in mind that writing isn't a strong point of mine. I have never been any good at writing (at school I was terrible) so there might be typos in this. Also I haven;t wrote any kind of phanfic for ages. Probably over a year in that matter
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