I’m sitting here in my cell awaiting my court appearance. I am frightened that I might be convicted for several murders and what’s more frightening is that I don’t know whether I committed them. Sure, I knew all the people that died and yes, I did want them all dead and no, I don’t have an alibi, but I just don’t remember killing them. Surely I would remember something as brutal and horrifying as that. I’m only 38 and have twins to take care of. I love them so much – why would I risk losing them? I must be innocent.