en·vy
ˈenvē/Submit
noun
1.
A feeling of discontented or resentful longing aroused by someone else's possessions, qualities, or luck.
verb
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Desire to have a quality, possession, or other desirable attribute belonging to (someone else).
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Hailey Scott, the unnoticed girl in a school filled with teenagers. That feeling in her gut when she felt others' eyes on her when she entered the school, a classroom, her home.
To have that feeling that everyone disliked you for just your presence being near someone.
Hailey had that feeling every time she'd been around her mother. She'd constantly give her that disgusted look, as if she wasn't even her child.
Ugly, worthless, fat, and unwanted? That was all her traits, known by all, even herself.
But when she's moved to a whole new crowd when people learn more about her, things change. For the good, or the bad.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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