Alive-Not by choice (boyxboy)
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Last published Mon, Mar 12, 2012
Coming out for Jaydon Doyle, wasn’t easy. All his friends turned his back on him and his already abusive father dislikes him even more. Unable to live with the isolation Jaydon took his life, only to be brought right back again, without his choice.
Sent away the ‘Institute for the depressed and disturbed’ without his consent. Jaydon meets 4 boys, all fighting depression. Tension builds between the boys as romance bubbles. Questions start to get asked. Answers are never given. Friendships break and new bonds are formed. Friends become enemies. A roommate who is desperate to know more about Jaydon, but won’t share any secrets in return. Promises are broken. Hearts are broken and secrets aren’t secret anymore.
All Jaydon wants to do is get out and end it all, for good this time. Will anybody be able to pull Jaydon out of his depression and keep him alive, but this time by his choice?
*WARNINGS*
Contains self-harming and suicidal thoughts.
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