My name is Jace and I have a secret admirer. She is so good at keeping her identity a secret, all she gave me to identify her is her locker number, I've stayed after school, got to school early, went to her locker during lunch, and no one is there. I've even waited outside my locker where she puts the notes she writes me and its like she is a ghost. The poems and letters she writes me are so beautiful, I just wish I could figure out who this girl is. I write her back everytime I get a letter in my locker from her and slip it in the slits in her locker. I've asked her a million times to just tell me who she is, but nothing, is she scared, is she shy, I just need to know her name, I need to be able to hold her late at night. To hold her hand in the halls, to give her my away jersey to wear to the home games, to call her my girl, to kiss her and make her feel loved.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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