Goodbye... ( a suicidal's story)
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I committed it. Suicide. No one knew I was suicidal. Maybe someone could have saved me. But maybe I deserved all of it. I was tired of living and going through everything alone. Faking a smile and doing whatever 'normal' people do was so tough. Sometimes it all gets a little too much. Everyone thought I was strong. Rude. They thought I don't give a damn about anything or anyone. But little did they know what battle I was fighting.
You wanna know why I did it? Well... for that you have to read it...
I am Jessica Anderson and this is my story till the last Goodbye...
Ã/Ñ-- Through this story I do not support Suicide. I am in fact writing this just so maybe if you notice anyone's suicidal , you can stop them.
Read it. Maybe you can save someone who goes through anything like this.
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