Finding Me
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Ongoing7m
Last published Fri, Nov 29, 2013
" I've been bullied, beaten beyond belief, called so many names that I've forgotten who I really am. I've gotten so depressed that it feels like I can no longer breathe. No longer am I able to laugh. No longer am I able to cherish the sun as it kisses my skin. All I do is cry, so much that a trail has been burned into my skin like a tattoo. Want to know the worst part? I still dream that one day everything will be okay. That maybe there's still hope."
I look up at him, tears burning my eyes.
" Please help me, help me fix these scars, these wounds. Help me put back the pieces of my heart. Truth is, I can't do this alone. I know I tried to push you away, but the truth is I need you more than anybody who's ever come into my life. If there was one thing I could take back it would be the things I said to you. Please forgive me. Please, comeback and help me. I need help remembering who I used to be. I need your help in finding me."
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