All Of My Secrets
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Last published Tue, Jul 28, 2015
"I’m not worrying about anything. I’m not caring about anything.
I sometimes dream about dying, more specifically about killing myself. I wonder what it feels like. I wonder if this is how it feels to die."
My name is Taylor and this is going to be my "Journal".
I feel like I can't talk to anyone about how I feel so I decided to write this for myself.
I’m 17 years old. I am about five three, I have blue eyes and golden brown hair – a bit of a ginger colour – that reaches to my bum.
I have four birds, Settle, Grey, Boy and Harley, and a dog, Jackie (17 years old).
I do school online and am studying at TAFE in a course about animals.
I spend my time volunteering at the local animal shelter.
I'm a bit messed up in the head, with depression, anxiety, OCD, an ED, hallucinations and delusions. I've also self harmed and attempted suicide.
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