These Little Voices - Phan
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Dernière publication lun., sept. 21, 2015
It's all just a fight against these little voices.
The voices in my head - they said you didn't care, they dragged me in, they took care of me.
I'm getting worse, I'm not alone, I'm scared.
Why didn't you save me?
TRIGGER WARNINGS.
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