Just being misunderstood (Izaya x OC)}DuRaRaRa!! fanfiction

I saw your message in the darkness of my room. And judging by the content, I understood...
It meant that I became completely... Alone...
It's because of my egoism why we're in this delirium of relationship... I'm just... Causing you... A lot of troubles...
Only that.
And although I understand it...
So sweet.
So convenient.
So one-sided.
So hypocrite.
So greedy.
So coward.

...

Until it reflects itself in the mirror.

KILL HER.

Beyond the thought...

KILL HER.

Cruelly...

YOU CAN KILL HER, CAN'T YOU?

Lack of communication...

YOU SHOULD KILL HER, RIGHT? BECAUSE YOU ALREADY HATE HER.

Completely alone...

KILL HER. EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE IF YOU KILL HER.

My thoughts are torn into pieces...

WHY CAN'T YOU DO IT?

Then to me... With all your strength...

THEN KILL ME. WITHOUT PITY.

I understand this lack of communication.
UNTIL I UNDERSTAND...

I think...

...THAT I CANNOT REACH YOU...

...that at that moment I lost myself in your eyes...

KILL ME WITHOUT PITY.