My Regrets In My Life

When I was 4 years old,every night my parents my fighting I just so scared me my brother want I them to restrain but I do not know how to do.
A few days later..........
I passed us fish ball vendor and I want to buy a fish ball so my mama she buy a fish ball that I want then after that I want some a water in a bottle she hold but mom said"do not drink that because its dirty"and I said"okay I just take my own water"but she drink a water that she says dirty.She drunk a water though was the she drunk a poison,that day I'm so worried she blow and blow and I called my papa,papa called some any people helps my mama to go in a hospital my feelings that day are I'm so scared and so crying ,I'm worried to my mama's situation.
Last I saw my mama is Grade 4 then she died last 2008 and repent that she died i want to saw my mama in resting places but I don't where in place.
MY regrets in my life,she not kiss,hug and saying a I LOVE YOU I'm so cried to say that MAMA WHERE YOU ARE I'M SORRY AND I MISS YOU AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MAMA.
I realized life Its to shortly so you love loves you do not wait to lose her life before you say the word love so you love and take care of your parents while they are still alive.
In 2011 my father he got married again in my new mom,she's kind,watchful d even though we did not really have a bridge child is considered child and I'm so love her .Now I will not waste the time we were together was the reason how the broken family.