I knew Mattie was there to protect me when I couldn't protect myself. But now that I was older, now that we're older, she was coming out more and more often using any tiny glimmer of fear to force herself out. Mattie didn't want to go away. And I couldn't stop her. Her trigger was my fear, it's what woke her up, and she wouldn't leave till whatever has scared me is gone or dealt with.All Rights Reserved