A New kind of crazy
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In a world where if you of you so much as deviate from the social norms only ever so slightly people will start to curse the day you were born. They will try and break you down in the most powerful way possible, from the inside. Self hate stems from people who want you to hate yourself because as long as you love yourself it doesn't matter what anyone says. Their most powerful weapon is you and only you know your limits.
For the depressed the mentally ill for the unorthodox for the misunderstood for the misguided the trodden on and beaten down. Don't let them get to you. To anyone who feels they can take from this story, I love you. Love is everywhere not just in people.
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