Limited

Limited

Dreamer_In_Time

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Complete Tue, Aug 16, 2011<5 mins

dreams feeling limited

Sometimes I just feel limited. As if I can't do or say what I want. In this world I feel judged, misunderstood and tied down. The only way to escape and be free, is just to be in my dreams.

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