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As I Am

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Parts 32
Time 5h 52m

contemporary death greif loss newadult youngadult

"Do you want to talk? You know, about everything?" Evan asks. He's staring up at the star-covered sky as he holds our brown bag of French fries.
	I finish my sip of my vanilla milkshake despite not wanting to stop and follow his gaze. The stars twinkle against the black and wish I had brought my camera. Somehow I thought that bringing it on our maybe-maybe-not date wasn't appropriate. 
	"I don't know," I smile, "everything seems like a lot of talking."

Alabama Reed has fooled herself into thinking that this could work and she knows it. With an accident she's trying to downplay and a loss she can't seem to forget, things aren't looking good.

    So Bam's parents do the only thing they can think of; they take their daughter and drive her halfway across the country to sleepy Mermaid Bay to live in an empty cottage for the summer.

    Things quickly start looking up when Bam realizes the newspapers don't cover news that happens hours away, but as soon as she starts making friends and secrets of her past start unraveling, Bam finds out that you can't always run from your past - even if you actually run away.

Spiritual #18 May 16th, 2013All Rights Reserved

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Eyes Behold

Sneak Peak Jordan had his head nuzzled in her neck trying to calm down . Rose patted his back affectionately running her hand down his arm in a comforting manner. " Jord-" " Shhh ... Let me . Pls little one. I.. I was so scared today ." He whispered in her neck . He pulled back and cupped her face in his hands . " I was so so scared . I didn't want to lose you , never ever and I thought today after seeing those comments and that post ... I thought. .. I thought I'll lose you. " His hands were shivering slightly. Rose put her hands on his and looked tenderly in his eyes. " You won't ever lose me Jord . I'll always be there for you. Always . " She whispered back to him comforting him. --------------------------------------------- It has dark pasts yet no broken souls ... It has celebrities and millionaire yet no marriage deals and egoistic fights ... It has a beautiful and kind girl and a rich player yet nothing in it is cliche... It has a group of friends who fight to death not only with each other but also for each other ... It has people who have lost their families yet strive to complete other's lost world... It has kind dedicated doctors , fun loving players, it has famous singers , it has deprived and lost souls , it has the light to pull you out of the darkness, it has strength to help you face life , it has many things worth knowing... It is my first story "Eyes behold" ... Because simply, a person might never let out the inner deep meanings of their life but eyes , eyes never lie .... So just behold their presence and look deep in them because they tell you everything... Everything...