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As I Am

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"Do you want to talk? You know, about everything?" Evan asks. He's staring up at the star-covered sky as he holds our brown bag of French fries.
	I finish my sip of my vanilla milkshake despite not wanting to stop and follow his gaze. The stars twinkle against the black and wish I had brought my camera. Somehow I thought that bringing it on our maybe-maybe-not date wasn't appropriate. 
	"I don't know," I smile, "everything seems like a lot of talking."

Alabama Reed has fooled herself into thinking that this could work and she knows it. With an accident she's trying to downplay and a loss she can't seem to forget, things aren't looking good.

    So Bam's parents do the only thing they can think of; they take their daughter and drive her halfway across the country to sleepy Mermaid Bay to live in an empty cottage for the summer.

    Things quickly start looking up when Bam realizes the newspapers don't cover news that happens hours away, but as soon as she starts making friends and secrets of her past start unraveling, Bam finds out that you can't always run from your past - even if you actually run away.

Spiritual #18 May 16th, 2013All Rights Reserved

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Aurelia [h.s.] by StylisticMoods

"Aren't you afraid?" "Of what? Dying?" "Yes, exactly that." She took a moment to deliberately pick the right words in her mind because she knew he was going to ask why the moment after she answered, "No. Death is unavoidable, it's a part of life that is inescapable since birth. It's written in our very nature. The problem is that people spend too much time worrying about death and not living their lives to their fullest potential. We were born to both live and die and that seems to be forgotten somewhere along the way. I am not afraid of dying even though I could die at any given day at any given time because I'm making the most of my life and I know that something better awaits me when I go." [Edited!]

Chances Of Truth ☑️ by zZohana3

"It's too much to remember everything and everyone, all pain and hurt is killing me day by day little by little. I wish I could remove all the pain and move on in my life. I wish I could find an eraser or Better a delete button, so that I could start from beginning, without any misery or pain." ......................................................................................... "Hey Eva, you know you can trust me, right? " He asked me again cupping my cheeks, I can't let him continue this. It had to stop now or it would be too late. I can't risk everyone's life specially his. If hurting him means, him being alive then I would do it without thinking. Again and again. "Eva are you even listening to me?" Noah asked moving his face closer. From this close I can even see the scar which he told me about, its just below the border line of his hair, it can be easily conceal but from this close its more real. His eyes, they are magical. I would love to look at them all the time and never get tired of looking at in them. No, I cannot do this to him, I can't be selfish, I have to do something this time. "No" I answer and walked away from him. .............................................................

Starlight by a_readsss

"Get the fuck away from me, Leo." I lean down a little, so we're barely eye level. "You followed me to New York. Are you really that desperate?" "If you believe that my life revolves around your immature self, then your life must be sad. I fucking hate you," she responds. I twirl one of her curls between my fingers as I lean closer to her ear. "So why don't you go back to leaving, yeah?" ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* :･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐚 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞. 𝐙𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐚 𝐌𝐨𝐨𝐫𝐞 wanted nothing more than to waltz through life and try to get through it one step at a time. 𝐋𝐞𝐨 𝐕𝐚𝐬𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐳 and his twisted past ensured that their worlds inevitably collided years later once again. Two people entangled by 𝘴𝘦𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘴. Will they survive each other? Or were they always destined to be nothing more than a temporary eclipse.

Taunt by meepsahir

"Can we stop feeling guilty, Amelia? Guilty for all the things that weren't our fault." "We can Leo. Maybe someday." "That day isn't far off Amelia. I'll make sure of it." ___________________________________ There is a lot to think about when you find out your best friend has been raped and murdered. There is even more to think about when you're the last person she saw the night she died. But that's not what caused me to black out in the middle of a rocking party scene, surrounded by all the people I had known all my life. It was when I saw who had killed her. Hilarious, charming, the guy with the perfect quiff, and star quarter-back of the football team. He was loved by everyone. He was the guy you couldn't stay away from. Levi Harrison. My brother. ____________________________ #1 for General Fiction in The Grace Awards 2019 #1 College Romance 11/19 #3 Bullyingawareness 04/20 #2 Assault 06/20 • Started: August 2018 Ended: - January 2020 (Unedited) • WARNING: this book contains a mature theme, not suitable for all audiences. There are recurring themes of assault, mild depression, and violence. On the other hand: it'll put a big fat smile on your face! •Any media used belongs to it's rightful owners. No images or videos used belong to me.•

Last July by AriHaruno8

"Listen Kenzy, I know I've been an ass and truthfully maybe you shouldn't even bother returning my calls. You're right, I've been nothing but awful since we met, driving you away yet desperate to keep you close" My heart clinches, but I dared not breathe. Too afraid to give in, too afraid that if I reach for the phone, I'll call. I'll call to make it right. I want to make it right, because this man affects me more than I ever thought he would. But it isn't right. I can't give myself false hope. "Please just talk to me, let me explain. It's not you.....it's me. I'm the asshole. You don't deserve this, you didn't. ..." He pauses and I hold my breath still, fearing he'd hear me breathe, yet, it's only his left voicemail on the phone. Not him "I'm sorry.......dammit!" And that's it, our one sided conversation ends and I'm more broken than before. What happens when your world crashes? When the people you thought would be there forever literally runs through the door without a second glance backwards? What happens with taking a step outside your comfort zone? What happens when that step outside that comfort zone turns into....well unexpected? Personalities clash, feelings are crushed and just maybe that one person you ignore turns out to be the damn life savers. Easy enough, but did I forget to mention they belong to someone else? Will what happens in summer stay with summer? The beautiful cover was done by @LittleRedConverse23, go check out her great work ❤❤❤ #thebuttercupawards2020 #RoseAwards

DISCONTINUED by dancingfarmanimals

Certainly they could trust that those in power ultimately had the best interests of the people in mind, right? ~~~ Luna slouched low in her seat, staring at droplets of water that ran diagonally down the window of the bus. The sky was a flat, depressing grey and the incessant, soaking rain left her constantly chilled. It was a typical "liquid sunshine" day in the Pacific Northwest. They drove past a single tall scraggly tree on top of a hill shrouded in mist. The creepy tree was full of screaming crows. How could she hear them from inside the bus when she couldn't even seem to hear the voices of the kids around her? Geez, that was an awfully freaking dark image. She shivered and looked away. What did they call a group of crows again? Right, a murder of crows. Perfect. The weather was certainly the only thing that was typical these days, although you'd never know it by looking around the bus at most of the kids as they sat joking and gossiping with each other just like they had before... before that day everything had changed. Idiots.

cole & evangeline by westical

ONE BOY. Cole Prescott wasn't one for change. Day by day, he led the same, monotonous routine. He thought he had all he needed in life. Yet, he seemed to want something that wasn't there. With the emergence of a strange girl and an even stranger mystery, Cole found his life being turned upside down. ONE GIRL. Evangeline Roscher knew she was meant for something more. Spending one's life in the same, boring town didn't do much to satisfy her dreams of moving to the bustling, ever-changing city. More than anything, she wanted excitement, noise. And when it seemed that all her wishes were in vain, a certain boy and strange occurrences cause her to think otherwise. A SMALL TOWN. Welcome to New Melrose, a sleepy, peaceful town just outside the city. Its residents desire its quiet surroundings and convenience near downtown Melrose Square. However, despite having all it needs, a mystery emerges, threatening to shake the untroubled town from its slumber. A MYSTERY no one knows, yet... As their lives gradually become more and more intertwined and the mystery unravels, sparks occur, both wanted and unwanted. Things that have never happens suddenly happen in their sleepy town. So, before you embark on this journey, take a refreshing sip of warm coffee. After all, what could possibly go wrong?

Write Me a Letter ✓ by xthatIDIOTx

"Knock, knock?" Reed breathed next to her ear. It's been around three hours, she's come accustomed to it by now. Rolling her light green eyes. "Who's there?" "Who would you like it to be?" It was so soft in her ear, the sweet smell of his cologne taking her back to the ocean, wind whipping her hair wildly. His voice was deep and held a flirtatious tone to it. Her throat tightened when she realised what he meant by his words. "You smell really nice," he murmured, but it sounded like it wasn't supposed to be heard by her, or for him to have said it out loud, leading Birdie to have a burning sensation running up her neck and pooling in her cheeks. |~•~| ❝ i promise you 'right person wrong time' is a real thing. ❞ Birdie Wright, a twenty-four-year-old, blogger and aspiring reporter, is looking forward to becoming an intern at Chicago Fox News after receiving the phone call. But on the first day, she didn't expect to meet the man from the party, that her friend took her to as a congratulations, to be there, too. Reed Cherie, a twenty-seven-year-old, jobless and laid back guy, he really didn't expect to have received the call back to be an intern at Chicago Fox News. Especially when his mum forced him to, saying he needs a good distraction. Even though he didn't feel ready to move on with his life, he still decided to please his mother and her wishes. However, both of them weren't informed that only one of them would become the new news reporter. But, what happens when they find comfort in each other, just before everything crumbles between their fingers? ( CWMH Universe ) ( First Draft | unedited ) ( Mature Audiences Only ) © 2021 Dylan Crown. All Rights Reserved.

Finding Obsidian by RavensFlyAway

He brushed his lips against my jaw, his dark hair falling over his brow. "Open your eyes," he commanded. "Look at me." I followed his orders and looked into the raven-black depths before me. I saw my entranced gaze reflected in his glaring one. "Tell me what you see." I kept on looking at him, searching for something, anything, that remained of the person he used to be. They say the eyes are the windows to the soul. But his eyes were so dark, so empty . . . "Nothing. I see nothing," I whispered. He smirked, his gaze still on me. He pulled away, leaving me feeling cold. "Exactly. You see nothing - that's because there's nothing there." ** How much can a person change in just three years? Short and full of fiery spirit, Hanna Jordan is a gifted college student who is enrolled in one of the most prestigious culinary programs in the country. She's just returned from three years of study in France and is anxious to reconnect with her longtime friend, Rian Aronhalt. However, when she does finally see him, she's startled to find that he's become an entirely different person. Cold, ill-tempered, and exceptionally attractive, Rian is absolutely nothing like his old self. Worst of all, he claims he doesn't even remember her. Despite their differences, both are haunted by dark memories of the past, which form a poisonous bond between Hanna and Rian that neither can escape from. Can they both heal from the scars time left behind, and find love in the process?

Rain Again (Completed) by LaraRuze

Highest Ranking on hotlist: #1 #Wattpad Exclusive Story #New paid exclusive chapters available Her confusion multiplied, looking at the unrefined fury in his eyes, the seriousness and finality in his features. "I seriously am clueless here, Alex. What is it that I've done?" she asked. "Tell me." "This." he threw some photos her way. Shaken by Alex's behavior, Kate snapped her face back as some of the photos slapped across her cheek. They crawled down in the air to slowly settle around her feet. He looked away from her like she had burned him. And Kate couldn't help but feel her insides tremor. Instincts screamed at her that a storm had indeed entered her life with the intent to harm the love that she and Alex shared. Bending down slowly, she reached out with trembling hands; she picked up one of the photos from the floor and froze. In the photo, Neil, her best friend, and she was making out. Kate remembered this moment, but it was nothing like this. Lifting her eyes from the photo where she had apparently locked lips with Neil, Kate looked back up into Alex's eyes and got scared out of her wits. The eyes where used to be only love and affection for her. There, those emotions were now replaced with endless hatred only. ~Nothing lasts forever; people change, and so change their lives.~ Kate thought she had one forever with Alex, but that forever came to an end too soon. When she was about to tell him the news of her pregnancy, what she expected was his elation and love, never had she thought that she would be punished instead. Thrown to the street literally, she lost everything she held dear. ~Memories never fade, and pain can never be forgotten.~ And then, one day, Alex enters her life again, this time aiming to break more than her heart. He believed she was his unfaithful wife, only to see the truth when the destruction was complete. Prequel: In the Rain (ongoing) Sequel: And Then it Rained (ongoing)

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Aurelia [h.s.] cover

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Aurelia [h.s.]

"Aren't you afraid?" "Of what? Dying?" "Yes, exactly that." She took a moment to deliberately pick the right words in her mind because she knew he was going to ask why the moment after she answered, "No. Death is unavoidable, it's a part of life that is inescapable since birth. It's written in our very nature. The problem is that people spend too much time worrying about death and not living their lives to their fullest potential. We were born to both live and die and that seems to be forgotten somewhere along the way. I am not afraid of dying even though I could die at any given day at any given time because I'm making the most of my life and I know that something better awaits me when I go." [Edited!]