The Forest (frerard, boyxboy, SLENDERMAN!)
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  • Parts 9
  • Time 1h 18m
Ongoing, First published Apr 04, 2013
My routine was so boring and normal, yet so painful and depressing, because normalness leads to sadness. Can you imagine? Living the same day over and over, with no change at all. Everything is 'normal', and everyone is so fucking 'normal'.You get bored, which causes you to think, which causes you to get sad, and be lead on the way of depression. That's what happens if every day is the same.
  That's why I never want to be normal.
  But I had a change in my life, and that change was the mysterious Gerard, who somehow made me feel like I was living and not just surviving. 
  And I wanted him to call me, I really did.
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"God, Gerard," he moaned, "Are you that oblivious?" Frank watched him nod with a shrug. He rolled his eyes and continued nonetheless, "I really like you. I just wanna be fucking normal!" He huffed rubbing his eyes, "I wanna do stuff that I would do if we were normal. Like fucking romance shit. Like holding hands on the roof and looking at stars. Or sing to my Pandora station while we clean parts of the church before Sunday. Or make out in the back of my car and listen to my favorite songs. And god I would kill to dance in the rain with you and not have to worry about anything. No vampire shit. No age gap. No fucking rumors. You know that half of this goddamn town knows about my love life?" He removed his hands from his eyes to stare at Gerard who was staring back intensely, "It sucks. Everything sucks. My fucking life sucks." TRIGGER WARNINGS: mentions of gore, mentions of loss, mentions of suicide, suicidal thoughts, and suicidal actions, MAJOR CHARACTER DEATH