Depressed | Phan {EDITING}
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"Phil... I'm depressed"
"Oh my god, me too! I get so down in the dumps sometimes it's ju-"
"No. Phil. I have depression"
"Oh."
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triggers:
-self harm (cutting)
-depression + depressing thoughts
-suicidal thoughts + suicide
-gay slurs + other derogatory words
-abuse
-alcohol addiction
-rape
-murder
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#144 in Fanfiction
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completed - 25/9/16
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