Fight Through Fallout

That night we went to bed without a word. Ryder smelt like Cheap booze, and since I didn't drink this smelt sickened me. So I decided to go lay on the couch until I fell asleep. I lay there for hours, but all I seemed to think about was Josh. I pulled out my phone and Examined his contact. He even put in a picture of himself. I looked at it for a while, the way his hair looks, how icy blue his eyes are, the duck face he made.. Ahhhh. I sigh. Wait, no. What am I doing? I just met him. Stop Leda. Stop. I quickly close the contact and place my phone under me pillow. Yes, he is very attractive but I can't. I'm with Ryder and we both agreed that we would never cheat on each other and I would never leave Ryder for some guy I just met! Even though he is super sweet, and caring, and nice, and very good looking, and helpful, and fuck...