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Last published Sat, Mar 30, 2019
Young Phil Lester is getting over drug addiction brought on by his ex boyfriend. Soon after leaving rehab, Phil relapses and becomes friends with Dan. Their feelings grow stronger for each other as Phil tries to distance himself from his ex. Will he be able to quit with help from Dan, or did he mess up for good?
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