Raven

My name is Raven. At least that's what they tell me, I don't know who they are either.
I don't remember anything before 3 days ago, my memory is gone.
The empty feeling is killing me, waking up and not knowing who I am, who I would have fought for, makes me wonder what drove me to this.
They told me I wanted this, had begged for it. They said I wished i could start over.
Why? I never get an answer.
One tells me he gave me what I wanted. The other says he's sorry he wasn't there to stop me.
They're not human, I know that for sure. I don't think I'm human either.
Sometimes at night, when they think I'm asleep, I hear ones howls of sorrow.... But I can't stop it.
I feel like I could be stronger. That I could remember if I try harder.
But..do I want to?
Was my life worth living?
I dream again, but not the same dreams. Not of lips touching and secret words said. This time its different.
I dream of me, more like a memory, cutting my wrist. My breath becoming weak and soon enough, it stops. I die.
I remember thinking I wanted to. That this is how I could be free.
Maybe I shouldn't remember, somethings are better off left alone. I killed myself, only I didn't die.