Steven is happy with his life. He really is. He's got the gems, his dad, Connie, and everyone else as friends, and he loves those. However, the Malachite and Peridot problem has been putting a heap of stress on him that he doesn't want. The truth is, we don't know our Steven completely, and he doesn't know himself completely either. But does he want to know himself? (Steven is my son and I'd prefer this does not become canon or else I will die)