This. Is. Me.

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Parts 18
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Reads 2,598
Votes 48
Parts 18
Time 2h 9m

Mature

I have to make my parents proud. If that means not eating I'll do it. I have to be beautiful. I have to be perfect. This is me.All Rights Reserved

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Mariyah collin is a thick girl, she have a huge crush on this guy name Dustin for 3 years and she's obssesed with him . Dustin is a fit, handsome, popular guy in school. He hate fat girls mostly he hate Mariyah, he like to fat shame/verbal abuse her and that make Mariyah hurt alot, but she's hiding it. Mariyah suffer from, Insecurities, deepresion, suicidal thoughts, crying everyday and night before sleep. she has no self-confidence, she just hate herself and wanted to end her life just because of Dustin and her thick body but she's trying to stay strong. Mariyah is an only child. She had a lovely parents trying their very best to support her. She can lose weight but there are some reason that make her hard to lose weight. Mariyah didn't tell anyone that she suffers from pain and suicidal stuff. she kept it all by herself not even her family and friends until one day everything has spilled out. what kind of reason? why did she like Dustin that much? what happened to Mariyah later? Is she going to lose weight? will Dustin like her if she lose weight? why does Mariyah kept her feelings to herself? what happens after everyone knows knows about it? (more question?) Read the book to find out all the answers *°Based on a real life story°*

He always assumes I want money. That money can replace my desire for a mother, for a female figure who will guide me through the darkness. All he can provide is money. He assumes that because I use the money, that I'm happy, that I don't spend night hunched over my toilet bowl physically sick to my stomach with the guilt of killing my mother. He assumes that because I have friends, that the smile on my face is genuine. That because I smile and confidently stride out of my room in a bikini, that I love myself and the way I look. He assumes everything about me, because he doesn't know me. I'm his daughter, and with the simple fact, he assumes that by just looking at me he knows my every thought. Does he know of the blood I spill when I have no other method of coping? Does he know of the times I sit and ponder about what it would be like to go through death? Does he know that when he leaves for work, I cry myself to sleep and wish for a mother? Does he know that I could care less about him? I hate him. But he loves me. Does he know, that through all this mess, I just want a mother. Because according to Disney, mother knows best?

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Life as a child was amazing. Your weight didn't matter. Your clothes didn't matter. Your parents money didn't matter. All that mattered was who you were going to play with, but that's all gone now. My sister hates me, my mom has no time for me, and my dad, well he left me. My life has been one whirlwind after another. Except I'm content with it, till it all comes crashing down. Every television, billboard, and magazine is covered with models. Models that are supposed to be role models, for us. Perfect face, perfect body, perfect life. I have none of those things. All my life I've never cared that I was over weight, and didn't wear makeup. Who knew a boy could change all of that? That's when I decided to starve myself, force myself to look like the girls in the magazines. Who knew all I was doing was slowly killing myself? Life likes to play games, except my game is called Ana and I don't think I will survive. (unedited) Cover by: MadHatter_25

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Her whole live was a mess ,all 12 years of it why? well she never knew when her next meal was, never knew if she would have a roof over her head ,a bed to sleep in , Her parents could afford nothing , and her mom died not a year ago from cancer , they couldn't afford to treat her , now her dad's sick , he can't get up or even move , she knows she's gonna lose him too , it's just a matter of time , she's holding on to all the memories,because soon they will all be gone , she's going to the cheapest school ,which they don't care about her grades . She feels there is no one out there who cares about her and now she has lost everything Until she runs into this guy who seems to care alot about her , making sure she's fed ,and if she needs a ride , will this be a start to a new chapter in her life ? will she finally not have to stress or worry ,will she learn to except the new life awaiting her? It seems around every corner there's always something new that is awaiting her

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A girl who has been called chubby her whole life. By everyone. She wants to be a model; thinking it might make her pretty and people would stop calling her names and laughing at her for thinking she had a career in modeling. So she applies to a modeling school. The best in town. Her dream is to be a model. Yet, she is brutally rejected when she applies which completely shatters her heart. Her parents never supported her. So after she's rejected, instead of consoling her; they criticize her even more. She never really had friends to begin with; and now that the news of being rejected from the modeling school spread, no one would even look at her in a friendly way. She was mocked. She was bullied. The words kept changing. From chubby to fat. From stupid to worthless With the excessive amount of bullying, she fell into depression. Hard. She stopped eating. Maybe it'll make the horrible words go away?

Move On And Run (COMPLETED)

Mariyah collin is a thick girl, she have a huge crush on this guy name Dustin for 3 years and she's obssesed with him . Dustin is a fit, handsome, popular guy in school. He hate fat girls mostly he hate Mariyah, he like to fat shame/verbal abuse her and that make Mariyah hurt alot, but she's hiding it. Mariyah suffer from, Insecurities, deepresion, suicidal thoughts, crying everyday and night before sleep. she has no self-confidence, she just hate herself and wanted to end her life just because of Dustin and her thick body but she's trying to stay strong. Mariyah is an only child. She had a lovely parents trying their very best to support her. She can lose weight but there are some reason that make her hard to lose weight. Mariyah didn't tell anyone that she suffers from pain and suicidal stuff. she kept it all by herself not even her family and friends until one day everything has spilled out. what kind of reason? why did she like Dustin that much? what happened to Mariyah later? Is she going to lose weight? will Dustin like her if she lose weight? why does Mariyah kept her feelings to herself? what happens after everyone knows knows about it? (more question?) Read the book to find out all the answers °Based on a real life story°

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