Fuck up mind
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I sat there observing them. Watching them laughed and make jokes about each other. They occasionally turn to my direction and let me in and join the fun but ... I just sat there laughing together with them.
I'm stupid. Stupid! Stupid! I want to be repected, be loved, be wanted but there they are laughing at me. Though I think it's me ...
I don't know anymore ... My minds cloudy with confusion and hate. Mostly hatered. And yet they tell me I was crazy, maybe I am.
Smirking I let out a tiny laugh at myself.
I really am stupid ...
A story about a girl's lonely life. Who wants to be happy, to be recognize but it seems that people would just rather ignore her rather than acknowledging her being. But even so she remains to be stupid and ignorant believing that everything would be alright. After all the gods above has plans for her right? Better plans.
She smiled and went on with life. Imagining what happens next.
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