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Last published Sat, Nov 21, 2015
I have vanished in the mirror of maturity. Appeared in insanity. Moved within madness. Watched myself smile from a valley of brutality. Shed and showered in blood baths. I have ran miles. I have seen myself in grief and pain for years. Now.. It's getting gruesome and gruesome each day. My mind is clouded with slaughter. I've been torn apart and all I see is BLOOD. No more but blood. Although I've dreamed to have a new world, A world where fear no longer exists. A world where there is no blue. A kind of world where I have nothing to carry. A world where all ends meet and everything flows just the way it's supposed to be. A world where I can move freely and live like kings. A world where I could learn to love. Love not in fear but to love because I wanted to. And I believe I'm meant to. I'm not stupid. I'm still alive. I was dead. Now I'm back. If I ever kill myself again, I'll make sure to drag you down to hell with me. There is no way of coming back. You chose this. I chose you. You should choose me. This crazy, psychotic bitch you'll never get away from. You can run and probably hide. But I can find you and when I do, You'll never get away this time.
" You were in a cage where you trapped yourself. Tore yourself to pieces. Skewered yourself with a screwdriver. Stuck a pencil down your throat. Slowly tortured and tormented every last piece of you. And now you've come so far just to kill yourself again. But I can assure you that I'll kill you even better."
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