"I slipped slowly into the, now red tinged, water. I would soon be somewhere where I didn't have to meet anyone’s standards. You can’t meet standards when you’re dead. So soon, I smiled twistedly; this would be my crowning glory. A bit over dramatic? Good, I was going for the kill. Ha, kill. I was getting sleepy, if the drugs didn't help speed up the process, the wrists definitely did. My eyelids drooped, goodbye cruel, sick world. Fuck all of you." Ginelle, or Gigi to her few friends, was sick of it all. Her abusive boyfriend, her neglectful parents, her eating disorder, and to top it off, the loss of her baby. She wanted to die, she needed that escape. When her brother saves her from her attempted suicide she is sent to a rehab center in Cave Creek, Arizona where she must open up and face her demons. There she meets a brooding and very nosy Adrian, who will stop at nothing to find out her secrets without exploiting his own. **This story will contain a lot of awkward sexual situations,drug use, and a lot of swearing. No promises on not offending anyone. But please don't tell me how to write my story!**
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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