If your expecting an exiting and with lots of adventures and THAT MOMENTS , I'm not the right person to tell you that .I just capture these moments , I don't live them anymore it is an part of me that's lost for a long time of 2 years since I began the high school.
Don't ask me if photography is what I want to do in my life , even this question been really requested these times cause I'm graduating next year.I capture aways the sameness people from my school , I capture every moment , movement, feeling , breath...and I could tell you everything that's happening in these people life's just for looking , they having their friendships and their lifes , what's something that makes me think because I think that I want to come back to have a life but don't know how, Me , the one that have just 3 friends doesn't have a conversation with someone for a long time ... I think that I'm going to keep my camera , although this is the difference between my life and their life's, like , in one second that I press a button my life still the same thing boring and isolated , but for the person in the other side of the leads they're life's suddenly change , and that what is exciting!
These days a new guy come try to talk to me and the things started to change
"It's too much to remember everything and everyone, all pain and hurt is killing me day by day little by little.
I wish I could remove all the pain and move on in my life.
I wish I could find an eraser or Better a delete button, so that I could start from beginning, without any misery or pain."
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"Hey Eva, you know you can trust me, right? "
He asked me again cupping my cheeks, I can't let him continue this. It had to stop now or it would be too late. I can't risk everyone's life specially his. If hurting him means, him being alive then I would do it without thinking. Again and again.
"Eva are you even listening to me?"
Noah asked moving his face closer.
From this close I can even see the scar which he told me about, its just below the border line of his hair, it can be easily conceal but from this close its more real.
His eyes, they are magical. I would love to look at them all the time and never get tired of looking at in them.
No, I cannot do this to him, I can't be selfish, I have to do something this time.
"No" I answer and walked away from him.
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