Everyone is painfully aware of the unfortunate case of Newt, what he did and what happened to him. This work contains spoilers of The Maze Runner series, specifically The Death Cure. The following description also contains spoilers. Everything was too much for him. He wanted to end it all. After all the pain he suffered, he was going to end it by his own hand. Newt tried to kill himself in the earlier days of the Maze, that is painfully well known. However, he only confessed it to Thomas just before his life ended. What was that like for Newt? How did it unfold, and how did it change the the Gladers and life as they knew it? **this short story is based off the story of suicidal thoughts and actions. please do not read unless you are sensitive to those topics**