Not Any of These Things

He is the reason why I laugh.
The reason why I cry.
Even if his smile isn't mine
I won't cry.

I'll cry only in my sleep
because I know your thinking of someone else when you close your eyes.

If only...

*throws a handful of m&ms at friend*
"You said this movie will make me feel better!"
"Are you crying?"
"Hell yeah I'm crying!"
"Good. Then cry on my shoulder."
*gives friend death glare and then gives up by sobbing uncontrollably on friends shoulder*

"It's not healthy to always cry alone."
Nodding I sat back down trying not to explode.
"Let's just keep watching the movie kay?"
Even though it hurts.
I have to keep watching.
To keep moving forward.