depression is a bitch
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hi my life story is all in here saying everything I've gone through but there's things that we just don't know and things that we just can't control in here shows how my life turned happy into sad and "gay" feelings, and how Im still trying to be a good person but im always being selfless and self conscious about my self im constantly thinking about others than my self I go to school and smile to make a person's day but inside im sad depressed and lonely but if this isn't good enough then it's ok
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