Sad how your only source of happiness could so quickly become your downfall . How depressing when suppressing feeling is all you've come to know . Heart wrenching when Yourself is something you think you could never again be . I'm Zayn Malik and this is the story of when I bid R.I.P. To the lover in me . Okay, so I don't like these descriptions because I feel like they are always giving the entire story away and I hate that . All I'm going to say is that this is a Lirry/Ziam fanfic with a side of Niam friendship and a pinch of Larry . Confusing, I know, but trust me it shall all make sense if you read it . LOTS OF DRAMA, FLUFF & SMUT .